Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Marriage? Yuck!!!
I realised something last saturday... Most of my cousins from my paternal side are getting married already. I went for my grandma's bday last saturday and was stunned to hear that two cousins who are 1 year older than me is getting married this year (to different people). And the cousin who is 3 years older than me is already pregnant with her first child. And my cousin who is same age as me, just a few months older is already engaged.
That makes me look like the only old maid around the cousins of my age group... which is so...so... sad... NOT!!!!
With them getting married means I have more angpows to get on CNY. So who's complaining anyway?
Getting married is such a chore, don't you think? It means you are finally tied down and you have a guy always trespassing your personal space. You will be laden with responsibilities of being half of the relationship ie comfort your hubby, screw your hubby, make a son for your hubby... etc.
This scenario happened yesterday in Lecture Theatre, between me and Sushi, who just got a new GF. I'm trying to get him to this concert because he is going to be the Worship Leader of the CF Camp and he needs exposure on how a session is going to be done.
Me: Go la... this Friday... Boleh la!!!
SC: Erm... erm....
Me: Can la... you need to go. Go for experience at least.
SC: Need to ask her first la.
Wahsai!!! Like a tied up dog! I didnot know you need to ask permission to hang out with your friends!!! I personally thank God that I don't have such a partner, serious!!!
SC: You are different. You very selfish.
And he went on and on about it, about being a fishmonger and all that.
So what?
Fact No 1:
I hate being tied down, having to come to someone's beck and call. I happened to be a human being who loves freedom and who believes in the basic human right of doing whatever she wants as long as it doesn't cause any physical harm to any other human beings. And by being tied down, I don't have the freedom anymore. Everything I do, I would be questioned by my hubby. Everytime I go out with friends, I need to ask permission from hubby. Argh!!!
Fact No 2:
My personal space happened to be huge and it encompasses almost everything I do. So it means my hubby will be like stepping into my personal space almost every second. I like my personal space and I guard it like a bulldog guards its kennel, and I get really pissed when my personal space is trespassed that I will bite! Grrr... snarl...
Fact No 3.
I'm allergic to responsibilities. Enuff said.
So, getting married is just something I would find a bore and a total waste of time. It would be nice to be free, to roam, to do whatever I want. Sigh... such would be life...
Then it reminds me off this song by Charlene "Never been to me" and I start to wonder, izzit true? I hate being a mother (I hate kids for that matter), I hate the responsibilities that comes with being a mother.
But let's just say I happened to want to be a mother... IF I want to be... I'll need to get married by the age of 27 at least. Medic students should know that a woman must have her first child before the age of 30, or the child will have a high chance of being retarded, the woman will have higher risk of breast and cervical cancer. So all ladies take note.
So I need to get married by 27, leaving me a whole two years to 'enjoy' married life before being burdened by a kid. But then, let me see... by the time I get my MBBS, I would be at least 23, 4 years for intern and houseman, I'm already 27. Then there is my specialist and all that crap...wow, I'll be an old maid by the time I get married. That is so... BAD!!! Aww... shit!!!
But actually, who cares yet? Still 10 more years to go before the deadline (deadline = 30 years old for first kid). Plenty of time to pick among the male of the species for the more worthy ones. Mwahaha...
Oops... for a moment there, I forgot I had a bf, hehe... oops.
One would think that all the above thinking may sound so male, about pushing away responsibilities, not liking to be committed... so I decided to try out this test on YeeP's blog (she seemed to like yeeping on all these little funny things), and guess what?
Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male |
You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved |
Wow... I never knew that I'm so boyish (haha, ya right). And guess what... I don't really mind at all. Screw it la!! Being a boy is cool if it means running away from responsibilities!!!
Anyway, going for CF now. Was bored, so blogged about this. Actually planned to blog about something else, but who cares...
Oh my... What a handsome man! Sit down and have
some tea and I promise I won't stalk you.
- Lady in Le Buque, Suikoden III
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