Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Happy Valentine's Day!!
As you guys know, yesterday is Valentine's Day. So what did you all do? I know friends who went out fishing because they were bored. Some cooked and ate alone (poor thing). Some could only stare at their girl/boyfriend's pictures because the person happened to be out of the world or something. Some did not even realise it was Valentine's.
Well, some luckier ones get to hang out with their girl/boyfriends. Some get to eat their girlfriend's personally cooked meal, most spend the night staring into each other's eyes at some fancy restaurant (Food Avenue counted). And some just hang out at their place doing things I rather not describe. Some get to listen to piano recitals (albeit its a bit lonely alone) and some spent Valentine's climbing Eifel Tower. *glower with jealousy*
What did I do? SECRET.
What is Valentine's anyway? It pays tribute to my favourite Final Fantasy VII character, Vincent Valentine. It happens to be one of my friends birthday, who is aptly named Valentino. What else? Back in secondary school, when I have yet to find myself a boyfriend, I deemed Valentine's as a chance to do some fund-raising. Me friends and I will sells chocolates and flowers to fools who are willing to spend RM100 above for just a bouquet. We really did earn a lot back then.
But now... hmm... let's not go into that eh...
Anyway, since its valentine, I would like to dedicate these posts to a few angels that had graced my life since I was born.
I used to think that God-sent angels have huge wings and golden shining halos, but as I grew up, I realised angels do not have wings or round hoops on their heads. They come in all shapes and sizes. They enter your life, and either stay or move on. But they will certainly leave something behind in your life.
I've angels that had entered my fucked up life. Some touched my life and moved on. Most remained behind and became friends. Few remained as angels in my heart.
The first angel I kept close to my heart happened to be, my best friend. When i first met her, when I was still a little kid, I did not know better. But as I grew, I realise that she was like an angel to me. Even though if she doesn't know it, she actually helped shape me into what I am today. She's like a playmate, we do things together, hang out together. And being around her makes me really comfortable and I could just kick back and relax, knowing I at least have a friend who accepts me and do not pass judgemental comments over me.
Not to mention she was the one who brought me to Christ. I thank God for this angel, truly. May He bless her wings to bring her higher into the world.
MY second angel... well, he was an answered prayer. When my first angel left to further her studies, I kinda fell out and about, feeling a litte depressed and all. I went through this period of insecurities through college, feeling like the world is oppressing me and just pushing me down and trying to bury me. I prayed to God to save me from this phase.
And He sent me this angel, this angel that sacrificed his wings to protect me and shower me with his love. This angel went through thick and thin for me. He is my sanctuary, my blanket of security. I feel safe knowing that he will shield me from what ever the world throw at me, he will always be there, watching over me. He showed me love that I would have never known if not for him. He proved to me that I was loved and blessed.
Indeed I'm lucky to have him, I'm grateful and truly thankful that God gave me him. I do not deserve such an angel and I am like a burden for his torn broken tired wings. But still... God will provide for us. After all, He provided me him. This is our 3rd Valentine's together, and by God's grace, there would be many more.
Reaching through the dark for the light,
I cried for peace and love so bright,
Catching me as I was to fall,
He came to me, to answer my call,
An angel of hope, faith and love,
Reaching to me from above,
Dancing among the gentle light,
Guiding me to journey right.
So two of my most precious angels, both my bfs. Hehe.. What about other angels? you ask. Those angels that became friends? Well, if I am to name each one, hmm.. you'll probably get bored and jump off the Plane.
To name some angels that became friends to me I have to name my CG mummy Grace Chew. Also known as Chewing GRASS around here. She may not know it, but she had been really mummy like to me. She's gave me encouragement, both spiritually and in studies. She helped me to grow in faith in Him and showed me that God loves me very much. And the CG family will never be complete without a gong which unfortunately (hehe) happened to be an angel who shed her wings too. This Gong, well... can never imagine her as an angel. more like Lucifer's friends or something. But she is fun to be with. She kinda like this irritating elder sister that I thank God I never had. She looks out for me, always teasing me and BULLYING me. She just kindle this feeling of being a younger and loved sister in me. Good? Dunno. But she still is an angel that became my friend.
Ok, too much sentimentality in one short flight. Giving me goosebumps. Gonna go. Will fly again tomorrow.
Till then, I leave you a quote by the character named after Valentine's.
Escape from a world of illusions... Hmph... I wonder which is better.
- Vincent Valentine, Final Fantasy VII
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