Friday, February 04, 2005
What's up?
The big blue sky.
Well, that is what i would see if I am outside having fun in the sun. But instead, I am cooped up in this office and what's up? A white-washed ceiling and a Philip flourescent tube light.
It's currently 2 hour and 30 minutes into the start of TGIF. Waiting for Boss to bring back work for me to do, so in the meantime, what the hell, let's just blog since its been like a week since I posted anything interesting.
That is if I was ever interesting.
It's a fucked up life. Nothing ever interesting ever happen in a fucked up life unless I will it to happen. And somehow now, the only thing interesting tat is ever gonna happen is this trip to Chennai. (hopefully, hehe)
Other than that, I'm glad to report, despite my busy schedule, I managed to finish 4 of the 10 things I planned to do during Holiday.
1. Jigsaw Puzzle.
2. Finish 3 sins.
3. Earn RM600 for scuba. Got my paycheck today. RM600.00, not bad.
4. Finish Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. Ending is so sad. I'm usually not that type of emo ppl like YKk, but I nearly cried at the ending. Storyline is superb, better than MGS 1 and 2. Makes more sense, anyway.
Wonder what to blog about...
Damn, can't think of anything to blog about. Its holiday, a time for relaxation and just hanging around doing nothing. You know, get back all those energy wasted in studying and listening to lectures. I've read thru most of M2/03 bloggers blog, and many seemed bored by this long hols.
LONG??? Excuse me? 2 months aint long. Check out KenJay's calculation and you'll understand why.
Not to mention I'm working. Holiday is never boring, its just the work i'm doing that's boring. Get the drift?
As i sit here, staring at this screen, I am thinking, how wonderful it would be if we could be small kids again? You dont have to do electives, dont have to work... just be kid and get the freedom of being a kid.
When I was a kid, our year-end holidays were 1 and half month long. Back then, holidays really meant a time of fun and the epitome of laziness. I still remember back then, I used to wake up at 12 in the afternoon, just in time for lunch. And after lunch, it was relaxation the whole day. I get to do watever I like, whenever I like, being waited hand and foot. I can choose to play the whole day, or write the whole day or might as well sleep the whole day. I laze around, just rolling about doing nothing. Ah, that was life then.
Its good to wake up leisurely, feel the warm sun and do nothing but just feel the peace set in. You let the world pass along, you stand outside that flow of time, and just feel the world instead of being caught up in the rush of things. Its actually quite a euphoric feeling, this feeling of nothingness. No worries, no hurry, nothing but yourself. You are outside the world, in your own world, your own time. You think at your own pace, getting back in touch with your innerself, doing things that you find joy in.
You'll actually discover a lot of things by just watching the world, instead of being in the world.
Shucks. too bad we all had to grow up and be snatched up by the world again. Now our holidays are filled with all kind of activities that gives us no chance to enjoy our time. Not all of us are as lucky as KenJ who does nothing all day, nor we have the luxury like some people who complains that they are bored. There are some people who had to work, who had to be drivers for their family, who had to rush to and fro doing mindless errands, always being hurried forth without a time for themselves.
But it would be unfair for me to say that those bored people are dumb. Seriously, I don't mean that they are stupid or anything. Take away my PS2 and comp, take away all my books, my writing materials, take away my brain and strap me in a chair in a windowless room with only a TV. Anyone would be bored after an hour, even me. Hell, I might go crazy with boredom.
Come to think of it, I am LUCKY, to have my PS2, my computer, my books this ability to just laze around and not feeling bored. N I feel sorry for those unlucky not to have a life like I do. But what can I say? Different people, different life.
But for once, at least once, I would like to feel that type of life again,that feeling of freedom with no strings to tie u to responsibilities, to the hassle of life. Ever since entering college, that feeling has been banished from my life, yet when I entered IMU, there was once when I managed to live that type of life again, the life where you have no care for the world. It was short, 5 days, but still a time I will remember forever.
It was during our scuba electives, 5 days of pure fun in the sun with good friends. Nadia, my scuba buddy, and the guys Shi Ching, Big Xiao and Desmond. Those were the days, waking up with the sun's warmth on our skin and looking forward for a whole day of diving. No worries, no care, just living for the moment. And at night, there was crab-chasing along the beach, fooling boats out at sea with torchlights Morse-codes, or just sitting at the jetty drinking Chivas and singing Mariah Carey songs while the wind blew around us.
That was life. Free without a care of the world.
And I would give anything to get another chance to enjoy such life.
Well, I would be heading to Chennai like very soon. Most will find such trip a breakaway from the boredom they are suffering, but in my opinion, this trip maybe just the thing I need to help me find that free life again. A place where there are no parents nagging at you, no adults breathing down your neck. And to think that there is 2 weeks of tat. phew!
And then Grace dropped the bombshell. We are to work there. There will be adults. We are to work. Did I mention work?
But, knowing myself, I'm probably turn this whole 'working holiday' into some disastrous fun-filled 2 weeks. Hehehe... wonder what will Grass and YeeP think about that. I just can't wait to get out of this office and into that plane and fly myself to that subcontinent to really start my holiday. Two weeks away from home and two whole weeks of pure fun with two buddies. Hopefully.
Anyway, gonna drop you guys off here and fly myself back to the boredom of work. New Year's coming, and tat means more money. YAY!!!!
I wish I were a cat. Then I wouldn't have to work.
-Demi-human on Zelbess, Chrono Cross
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