Things that makes you go Hmmm....
Just finished lectures and gonna hang around for a while. So decided to just come post something. The news is out, the GI exams will be on the 22nd of Nov instead of 12, which is ok and stupid at the same time. OK meaning that now I don't have to slave to finish up the backlog of work (which in a way is also dumb) and stupid because now I have to reorganise my timetable (that is if my old timetable is feasible).
Life indeed is Fucked up.
Yesterday was All-Saints Day and I was invited by my Catholic friends, actually my Catholic boyfriend to go to St. Francis Xavier for mass. Up to date, I've been only to 2 masses, Christmas Mass at Sibu, Sarawak and Accension Day Mass at SFX too. So All-Saints Day Mass is my 3rd Catholic Mass and 2nd in SFX. But my first mass was a mess. I did not what to do as I did not have a Catholic explain to me what was happening then. In Sibu (a place I bet is better than Miri) and with non-Catholic friends who have Catholic relatives... I was a lost goat then, a living sacrifice that could crawl off the altar (did not know where that came from).
I've always find Catholic masses interesting, with all the little little rituals and stuff like that. You know, when you stand and when you kneel and when you sit... cross yourself, with holy water and stuff..., bow to the altar before entering the pew (I tried once and fell straight on my face, dunno why, maybe because I not Catholic kua). With all the incensce and little bells, and choir singing and priests dressed in robes, and young altar boys bearing all kinds of stuff. It was a strange and surreal experience. Not to mention the priests and altar boys are mostly cute guys, sigh...
Do you know that the cup that the priest drink from during Holy Communion is PURE GOLD???!!!! And the tabernacle where supposedly the body of Christ is place is like this grand little hut with PURE GOLD doors and MARBLE floor??? It's totally awesome. I was like some deer in a village, gaping at all the sights. There are people praying with those tiny beads of balls called the rosary, and the sight of so many devouts praying... just filled my heart with joy that I am a sister in Christ to them (eventhough a totally opposite denomination).
I did not know that the Priest has to learn to sing to become a priest until Sheena told me. What if this guy who wants to serve God but is like tone-deaf guy, then how? Makes one go Hmmm...
Catholicsm is a strange thing all together. Like Sheena's post on Confession...
. You confess to a guy, I mean a Priest who was given authority by God to listen to confession (in a way). But imagine telling the guy:
"Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. I had lustful thoughts of my boyfriend yesterday. I read a dirty book the day before. I surfed porn last night. I had a wet dream of some guy the night before. I hate my teacher. I want to kill Mr. So-and-so. I killed mosquitos and I think it is a sin as the commandment said 'Thou shalt not kill'. I lied when I said I did not piss in my pants. I lied to my mom that the porn in the computer belongs to me even tho it was my dad's. Blah Blah Blah..."
Sorry, but I can't just see myself doing that, telling all personal things to that guy. I confess everything to God, to the Lord himself. But I was just thinking this whole confession thing over as I sit here typing. Maybe its not so bad to confess to a human, instead of to God. Because when I talk and confess to God, I feel fine after confession, knowing that God has forgiven me and I will try my best not to sin again. But if I was to confess a man, I would be to embarassed to even sin, but then there is always the option of telling half-truths. Haha...
Coming back to All-Saints Day. Now this Day is for Catholics to appreciate the Saints of the past. But I've been wondering for a very long time... why? Catholics pray to the Saints in hope of getting their message across to Jesus. There are too many Saints to count, too many Saints to know. Ok let's just say
IF the Saints are up there with God, why would they speak for us? Mother Mary and the 12 disciples may, as they knew Jesus personally (St. Peter, St. James, St. Timothy, St. Paul, etc.) but the other saints? The 12 disciples are chosen by Jesus himself, the rest are chosen by Men. St. Theresa is 'saint-ed' by the Pope, St. So-and-so by another Pope. What gives them the authority to be our mediator?
Then listening to Father Simon's talk yesterday, on the topic that a saint is a person who believes in Christ, that we are all Saints... just makes me wonder even more. Fine if we are all saints, I can easily pray to St. Great-grandma to talk to God for me. Sure, haha.
But still if we are all saints, is it still feasible? Saints afterall are just dead people, and according to the Bible, they are sleeping underground, not up there with God.
Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord's own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words.
1 Thessalonians 4:13-18
So if what the Bible say is true (which is of course true), won't all the saints be sleeping underground and not with God? So how in the World can they pass our msges to God? Holy Mother Mary included.
Ok, this is turning into a theology debate, stirring myself back to the original topic. That mass has been a really interesting mass. Like that time during Holy Communion, when CK and I was urged by Sheena (our mommy) to go get blessed by the Priest. So I went, got blessed and waited for the bread. Hahaha!!!! That was like the most embarrassing moment of my life. Thank God it was only witnessed by a few friends. Though Father Simon would be wondering what in the world I was doing.
Someone asked me, "You are not a Cat?"
I answered, "No, I'm a Met."
And we met Archike there. At the start of the mass, we (I) were watching out for a black head with a white strip. He is like so totally different in lecture/CSU and outside. Outside he was so nice and fun, so totally unlike in CSU. He came with his family, and his daughter reminded me of the youngest daughter in the Disney Channel movie My Wife and Kids.
After the mass, we went for dinner at this place in SS2 which I completely did not know. We had fellowship among the Catholics (I was the only Methodist there).
The conversation somehow turned to the type of schools Sheena studied in.
Ignesious (junior): Rumah panjang?
Richard: On stilts? When you want to go toilet, you have to dig a hole in the ground and Paul Chen comes and scold you? Or is your school on the oil rig?
Sheena said to this junior, Christ from Sibu, "Want to whack them?"
Now wait a sec. Sibu and Miri is like totally different. And I told Christopher that. "Sibu is a very nice place. I went there for Christmas Mass."
And Christopher at once dropped the notion of hitting us. Hehehe...
We talked on and on, until we realised that a person (not from IMU) was getting bored and Richard suddenly struck up a conversation with her. It was really sudden. One moment we were insulting each other, the next moment, he was asking her, "So where are you studying now?"
"I sense an air of being left out." - Richard.
And a conversation sparked up between me and Choon Keong. We were arguing about PS2 and PSP. Richard suddenly started talking with Sheena.
"I sense an air of irritation." - Sheena.
But nonetheless, it had been a really interesting day. Which started with the fact that I actually payed attention in lectures earlier and not falling asleep at all. It was thanks to Ken Jay who was sitting beside me then. If he can pay attention, it would be a shameful for me to fall asleep.
This morning we had PBL 1, trying to tackle the trigger on jaundice. The faci asked us a question.
"What are the functions of liver?"
We answered monotonously,
"Blah... Blah... Blah..."
"Then what happens if liver fails?"
The group was like trying to figure it out. Me:
"We die."
How hard was that? Hmm...
And today before CSU, I was with Shu Jin when a patient suddenly greeted us. We greeted back, when suddenly the patient said to Shu Jin: "This girl here is a good doctor... in making."
HMMM??? I was like, ME????
The patient nodded and I began to kembang la... I think I thrive a lot on praises. Hahahaha...
Today's CSU was on Hernia examination. Most of you guys would have already watched it. You guys noticed something that makes you go Hmmm....? That guy in the video has erectile dysfunction. I mean, look at him. His dick is being played around and yet it remains flaccid. I dare to bet if Hiang Liang has accepted our proposal of him being our patient for Hernia examination, he would have a hard on at thought of it. Hehehe...
Ok, Richard is giving me that look again. Gotta go. Now with GI being pushed so far back, I've lost the drive to study. Sigh... but still... EOS looms at the near future. Gonna sign off now.
Your face, your ass... What's the difference?
