Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Arghh!!
Argh!!! I can't believe anyone can be so spineless and prideless and useless. You son of bitch do not deserve to be here, where the whole world could witness your defeat. You said that you would settle for a draw, that I understand, after all you were against someone more powerful. But I did not expect this.
You gave your second best in a fight. I know you are already through, but the pride, your sense of dignity. Gone, washed down the drains that would bear you away. You have a history where you were looked down upon, detested and scorned. And now you had a chance to prove yourself, to show that you can also fight, you blew it away. With this kind of fucking attitude, you might as well be looked down upon for the rest of your life.
Fuck, you did not even fight. You just let them kill you, tear you into tiny pieces. And you still say that you have pride. I spit on you. You do not have pride, not even a tiny shred. I always thought that rooting for you would be the best thing ever. The underdog that rose against all odds. But then you go and do this. I no longer respect you. You are below trash, below the slime that gather below trash.
And I hate you. Right from the very bottom of my heart, from the deepest recesses of my soul. I hate you.
I do not want to do this, but you left me no choice. Was I wrong to stand behind you and give you all my support. I think I was. Why did I even choose such a useless person as you. You might as well go to hell right now and stay there.
Or, prove yourself to me again. Show me that the past should be buried and that you can strive ahead. I no longer trust you, but maybe I can respect you again. It's all up to you. *sneer* I doubt it, but still you have a chance. We would have gone far, you and me, if you had not make this mistake. But I guess once you're fucked up, you stay fucked up.
So are you going to do it? Are you going to fight again? Or can you?
Odessa always said that one who doesn't use his powers is a coward.
- Mathiu, Suikoden I
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