Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Being Naughty Again...
Dear passengers, do you remember the time I got chased out of CSU? Those forgotten, check it out here. Guess what?
No, I did not wear sports shoes and T-shirt to CSU and insult the lecturer's stupidity. But I saw that same Doctor again when I went for CSU. She was like staring at me, and I bet she recognised me. She had this one kind look on her face, but I just ignored her and went for the class.
After the class, I walked out of the classroom, and nearly knocked into her. It was then I came up with this stupid idea. She was standing there, waiting for something and I walked past her, my labcoat unbuttoned. I had my tag on, a blouse (not a T-shirt) and my black shoes on. I walked past her to the shelves, got my notes and walked past her again. Then I did it again, going around her about 5 times. The look she was giving me was so damn hilarious. The way I walked was like trying to flaunt something and I think she noticed.
Serve her right!
Today's CG was pretty deep and thought provoking. It started with a lame game from TJ. Then Adeline, as the CG mummy started her speech.
Adeline: So what did Collin pray about just now?
Daniel: That you'll keep it short and sweet.
Adeline: I will.
Daniel: Finally, prayer answered!
Today we had two surprise guests, YeanKoon and Ryan Phua(Sem1 junior who happens to be our friend. He was the sailor venus). They came in when we were sharing some things. The questions of the day were: "Do you sense God's presence around you?" and "Do you think your friends sense God with you?"
Ryan, surprisingly, was really deep and profound. For those who were with Ryan before, you guys would understand. Yean Koon, wow, lagi deep. My answers compared to theirs were weak and meaningless.
"I know God has been around me that I feel immune to God's presence."
Which of course was a bad thing. God's presence is a really subjective thing. How would I know for sure that the feelings I have, I think is God's presence, God's answer, would be nothing more than my imagination. I know God is with me. When I'm happy, when I'm sinning. But like the small kid I am, I like to feel Him holding me and protecting me, but I know that is impossible physically. They say you'll feel God's presence the most when you are down and out.
But the thing is, I was never so that deep down and out. God's been good to me all this while, and that is proof enough that God is with me. Maybe just being happy means that you are feeling God's presence. Maybe I don't have to feel that rush of holiness rushing through me just to feel God's presence. Hmm...
And about my friends sensing God's presence with me? I don't think anyone would sense God is with me. The preception of society is that Christians are pious and holy. They sit down quietly, do not run about, always serious, do not joke, always nice. Basically everything that is just not me. But my personality and character is God given. I can't sit down quietly. I am a hyperactive 19 years old. Joking and being lame is second nature to me. So does that mean, to have my friends sense God's presence with me, I had to do a 360degree turnabout in my character?
Some of my friends said yes, I had to be a picture of Godliness and holiness, so people would see that wah... Christians are so good. But I don't believe it. Not everyone can be like Grace Chew, Adeline Gong and Caryn Khoo. Hell, I can't be like them. So what does that mean? My friends will never sense God's presence in me?
Hmm... damn... got carried away. Shouldn't be blogging about these type of so deep deep things here.
Anyways, got to go adee. Hemato is killing me.
But I am still a kid.
You can't tell me to sit down, and expect me too.
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